i had a good intense talk with Riduwan just now.
He got me thinking alot.
About my future that is.
He's 29. Married. In case your wondering.
I was doing obesrvation bay at A&E with him today,
and basically there was realli zilch things to do.
So he started asking me what's my plan after this.
I said i had to finish my bond and from there, well..
ya. QUESTION MARK. what am i going to do?
go poly? yes well, maybe.
he on the other hand, got all of it layed out nicely on the palms on
his hands. not literally of course.
He was SUPPOSED to have a degree in nursing BUT
he dropped out after the 1st year, THINKING
that "hey, its cheaper in spore. y not i do it in spore, n come back here
to work." Here, in his terms was Australia.
Not as easy as that.
He couldn't get to the U here n not even poly, god noes y.
So, sad to say.. That was the biggest mistake of his life.
So he tried his luck in ITE, even if that was a terrible decision he
had to make. Wahloa from taking a degree in Australia suddenly
downgrade soooo low to ite, how would u feel?
Nevertheless, now he's here.
He won't ever work as an assistant nurse here but he's
gonna migrate to Aussie after graduation.
He's already applied for PR there.
He told me.. Jangan jadi AN forever. Kalau boleh
keluar dari singapore. Sini susah. Nak beli rumah sebuah
pun dah macam boleh bankrupt apelagi kereta,belanje rumah.
Australia benefits banyak. the system fantastic. the taxes we pay,
we use them back. free medical assistance. free children education.
so on and so forth.
He said, now i may not think about all this. it may not seem important yet.
But i must start thinking and bit by bit, let my future take
shape lah.
Of course i wont want to become an AN forever.
Its hard to continue studying but if i want a good and comfortable life,
i need to think far. i need to "suffer" now, later and il definitely enjoy
all the money later later on. haha. nah. its not about the
money. well, almost lah. but its about pushing yourself
to achieve something THAT high.
Migrating seems interesting but that is seriously quite very far.
For the meantime, il just serve my bond.
Go to poly after that.
Work as a staff nurse.
Get married. tsk tsk.
Go do a degree.
And decide whether to still be in singapore or not.
haha. Quite a straight journey isn't it?
Semua nie, insya'allah sahaje.. Allah yang menentukan.
Saye hanye merancang..
I totally respect Riduwan lah.( i think i should call him abg wan.)
He's ambitious really.Willing to learn and he's DAMN HARDWORKING.
im influenced by him whenever he's around me.
Oh ya, ive injected 3 patient today. hee. best i tell you.
Life's been hard. But im telling myself that i should just
enjoy myself but yet not be too relaxed. Cause i have
a hard-assed teacher. She gave me a C for my first posting.
She can even tell me that,
"i felt that you could have reacted abit faster when the patient fall."
Like, hey? the fit was just 2 bloody seconds? How was i supposed to know
he was going to FALL?
How was i to KNOW you bloody idotic moronic cretin dumb ass
8#%^&*&* SHYMALA.
How could she say that? That i was just standing there looking at the patient?
Of course i was looking dammit. I was GOING to him.
see?? i told you. i told you she got something to say.
And the best part?
She said my attidude lacks initiative. and i am uninterested in patient care.
WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?
im what? i dont talk to the patient?
i dont attend to them nicely?
i talk to them rudely izzit teacher?
what????????!!!
im so pissed.
im so even pisser with myself for letting tears to shed in FRONT
of her. i just couldn't take all that in. i seriously couldn't.
Now i just feel anger. Everytime i see her i have this
thing boiling inside me. wanting so much to scream at her.
but i know i have to succumb to her beastly ways.
I HAVE TO. for the next 4 months.
i just wish, she fall really sick, and have to take MC for like
hey, 4 months!
that wont happen would it? hah.
Nvm. i hate her man. real bad.
BUT FOR NOW. lets be merry and sober again!!
Its the new year! 3days off again.. ;)))))))
so on the last note.
my new year resolution would be.
- to witness a miracle. chehhhhhhh. nolah. so 'a walk to remmbr'.
k seriously?
- to graduate as a full pledged nurse and bcum bloody hardworking.
- to earn AND save good money to support myself and family.
- to become less cranky to HIM.
- to go on a holiday OUT OF SINGAPORE.
- to meet my gfs and nrg friends more often.
- to spent more ME-time.
- and of course, to lose some bloody weight.
so sorry for the language. il edit when i have time. *roll eyes*
till then. gonna meet him at work.
have a great new year everyone, il be at marina bay for countdown.
nope. not siloso. too bad huh?? maybe next year. haha.
k. ta. happy hols. :)
