everytime.
i just wonder.
why we cant be completely happy.
why lovers claim to be so in love but
cant be so in love the next time.
why friends fight even if they are the bestest of friends.
why parents show love to their children
when they are so small but come teens?
the feelings fade?
ive got tons of why questions.
questions that can or can't be answered.
Things have not been a fairy tale this few days.
I always ask myself if you still cared.
Sometimes i even hate myself for tearing so much.
It pains ok.
Why cant it be the same anymore?
Why does it have to hurt so much?
Why is there so many things we are unhappy about?
Where is the contentment?
Its just so wrong. Everything is.
Does it take a lifetime to reach that peak of happiness?
What is it actually about?
I dont know anymore.
If there was a completely reasonable reason
for all these pesky tiffs,
i would gladly recognize it and
try my best to make things better.
But there isn't. Nothing.
Cause i would think better of it than to be blogging it here.
im hating all these negative thoughts.
hating all the drama of it.
hating all the late night worries.
hating every single minute of unhappiness.
Please spare me some thought.
Cause i need you as much as you need me.
I miss us being happy.
so bloody much.
